cool. COOL.

yeah. its the end of hari raya haji. maksudnya, im not posting twice fer today :D. since i have free time, i call it free time because i was sleeping fer almost 12hours today ler. eventho i still have lots of things to do, but, yeah, i think i need rest for myself. fer this while i think, i keep on using the same cara to solve the same conflict in my life. i tried to be cool, so that i wont feel that ppl around me are treating me like im not so important. but damn seriously, im scared i fall to the stage that i wont care and be the coolest person in this world. setiap kali buat baik and be nice to a person, mesti rasa agak dissapointed or sgt dissapointed. im not begging fer a best or same reply from what im done to a person but at least do appreciate. maybe ppl tend to get used of those kind of things if other ppl keep on doing the same things. yah. i think i get the answer. maybe. im not so sure. haih, kalau mcm ne, baik buat rilek ja. xla trasa and sakit hati. this is not as big as ppl think. saya just nak luah apa saya rasa. i need someone yg show up their feelings and their tahap penghargaan. bukan viewing from the far and wait what is gona happen after and after.kenapa few days ne sgt rasa mcm sedeh. ngok la. mood, plz come to me as i need you :/ 

maybe sbb raya pun dekat umah sewa and ALONE. ALONE okay. i used to care to someone on hari raya while that person was sick. i tried to be with that person as much time as i can. so that that person wont feel that being alone on hari raya is sooo depressing. oh God, please make me strong and stronger. make me cool and cooler day by day so that i can be as others, living in this life easily. 

p/s : happy birthday to G! pst, mau apa? birthday present aku mana?? hahha. donut UK weyh!